I Got Married Today
Sorry for the later post today, but I didn’t want to publish this until after it happened.
After being on a roller coaster of emotions about my wedding, I simply couldn’t take it anymore. Every thought I had about the wedding that’s in 3 days only made me feel upset.
I mentioned a few days ago how the fiancé came up with a plan to save my wedding from itself. He suggested we get married before the wedding. That made him my hero.
It fixed the problem I had with getting married in front of hundreds of people. It will be my pastor, his pastor, my parents, his parents and just a couple of close family and friends. I wore whatever dress I picked out of my closet, grabbed some flowers at Jewel-Osco, and got married on a Wednesday afternoon.
I’ve been cracking jokes for months now that we should have done that all along and if we’d had to pay for the wedding ourselves, it’s what we would’ve chosen.
I never thought it would be possible to get married that way I want. The thought of going into Saturday already married lifts a huge weight off my shoulders. This apprehension I had about feeling like I’m in a spotlight putting my relationship with the husband on display is gone. We’re already married! We’ve already exchanged vows and rings and it was be private and special and just ours.
We decided last year on Mardi Gras that we’d be married by Mardi Gras of this year. I like the idea of our anniversary falling on or before Mardi Gras every year for the rest of our lives. Mardi Gras never comes earlier than Feb 8th, and by getting married today, we are going to have that.
It’s weird that such a small thing means so much to me, but it does.
And so today, I am married, and I’ve stopped being so ridiculously upset about Saturday. I’ll have my wedding Saturday and spend the next 50 years trying to remember which day is actually my anniversary.